Mar 20, 2007

AM I OK?

Conversation 1: Are you OK?
                            Yeah! Why do you ask me so?
                            Because you look different from last time.
                            How different? Look tired and down and having a lot of confidence
                            No, I'm OK. (Smile)

Conversation 2: Woa, are you lacking of sleep. How come so tired today?
                           Yes, I've been lacking of sleep these few days.
                           What did you do? Studying, working and thinking, etc... What did you think about?
                           A lot of things come to nothing (Smile)
                          Are you OK?
                          Yes, I'm OK. Thanks.

 Two conversations from two different days, different people, but the content is the same. Do I look really OK as i thought? I don't know how do I look recently? Ugly, tired, terrible or how? Most of my students asked me "Crystal, you slim down a lot. What did you do? What did you eat?"

I didn't do anything and I even didn't think that I'm slimming down. But today I weighed myself, couldn't believe in my eyes, I think there must be something wrong with the scale: 42kg, never be too light like that before...

My friend said I'm being seriously stressed. Am I? There were a few times while I sat next to her, but she called my name three times, I couldn't hear anything to reply. My mind was very stubborn, it never follows me, always goes travelling somewhere else...

Then I think of one way to keep my mind busy always. Everyday, I'm trying to fill up my time with studying, dance teaching, working and running my small online business. No dating, no having fun. Sometimes, I feel life is really boring by repeating the same things over and over again. I've ever asked my friend to take a break and enjoy the life, hanging out with friends, when hen he said every day he works like mad... Now I understand why he has to do so. Each time before going out, I look at myself in the mirror, I think I'm still OK, still strong enough to handle all these things... But then none of my friends said " You look great!". Something is wrong with them or is something wrong with me???

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12 comments

  1. No one can assure that your weight won't reduce to 40kg or even less if you don't take care of it. So you HAVE TO take care of yourself while you are living far far away from family and just alone there. Promise me, ok?

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  2. I'm sorry if i couldn't say anything but right now i'm really speechless. Just know to appreciate at the way you treat me. I'm happy to have friend like you. Tq

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  3. Tiếc, I eat too much mutton recently, as a result, you have no sheep to count before you sleep. To pay for your insomnia, let me buy a drink someday.

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  4. Drinks like "Cool man" or "Banana Freeze" are great, heheheh...Thank for your kind...If so, i don't want to cure my insomnia, hahah

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  5. No pain no game... Let's try the mixed up of both drinks - "Freeze Cool Banana Man". If insomnia is the medicine of your success, sleeping is too luxurious for you... Ha ~

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  6. lolz, Frank, such a long name of drinks...I also hope that insomnia is the medicine of mine success, but i also scare that when i haven't enjoyed my success in time,i already die. You are too bad, suggest that way. :D Better you buy a Freeze Cool Banana Man for me, hahaha

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  7. Richard Nee6:52 PM

    Dear teacher: "YOU LOOK GREAT!!!" Really, especially when you are steping on the dance floor. You are the best! keep it up!!!

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  8. Thank you Richard for ur encouragement. Yeah, i will keep it up :D

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  9. TreLang8:10 PM

    Hola amigos.
    La parada justa cerca a decir hola a mis amigos y para desearle todo el la mejor, no es se preocupa, sea también feliz, porque vida es tan corto, deje vivo a hoy más completo, se preocupa... licencia él para mañana

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  10. trelang, i don't know Spainish, could you translate please? Thank q

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  11. Trelang1:42 AM

    Hello friends.

    Just stop by to say hello to my friends and wish you all the best, don't be too worries, be Happy, because life is so short, let live to the fullest today, worries ... leave it for tomorrow ...

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  12. i'm trying day by day, trelang. Thank you so much

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