Jun 21, 2009
I’m writing a letter to you again. This is the second time I write to you an email which never been sent to you, also on Father’s Day. Not exactly today, it’s tomorrow when the whole world celebrates a day for all Fathers. You are still somewhere doing something hard for our dream to come true, I bet. I suddenly become so emotional now when am chatting with someone and he is also a father. He told me his daughter just bought for him a dinner to celebrate Father’s Day for him. And she is not even teenager yet, not even reaches the age of 10. I think about myself. I can’t even give you a card, can’t even give u a wish. Because I don’t want to call you right now, I’ll cry over the phone and I don’t want you to worry til you couldn’t sleep. But honestly Dad, I miss you so much right now. I miss you until I could cry now when I see your photo. I wish to hug you so tight, kiss on your cheek and play with your grey hair (your hair turns grey more and more, it makes me feel so sad when I look at it).
What are you doing right now? You are watching TV alone in the house or you are with my mom? I’ve told you so many, many times please do not smoke too much. Please take care of yourself more. Please don’t think too much. Please sleep a little bit more and less worry. The most important thing is you have to be healthy and live longer with me. You know what, I’m asking you to stop smoking, not because I don’t like to the smoky smell. It’s because I so worry that it will cause some serious problems to your health. More than that, I’m very scared of anything happen to you. Sometimes, I dream that you will leave me, I would cry non-stop till I wake up. I don’t know how could I live without you. You must be healthy for the sake of me, my brother and my mom.
There is only few hours left to your day, I just wish you will be the happiest father in this world. Thank you so much for your huge scarifying for me and my brother, for our family. Those sleepless nights, those sweats and tears even the blood, I could never forget it. I promise! I love you, Dad! You are always my hero!