December 17, 2007 Crystalicious 11 Comments

"...Good night" <~Message sent~> but I still couldn't sleep. Turn off then turn on the computer again, but I don't know what to do...Ok, then I write blog.

Tonight, I'm headache. Tonight I'm tired. Tonight I worry. Tonight I'm scared. Tonight I miss home. Tonight I feel lost. And tonight I'm sleepless.

Perhaps, BECAUSE....

My final exam really makes me headache. Not because it's difficult, but I can't concentrate on it 100%.


There are too many things, too many works to do. People say because I'm so greedy. I have no explanation for this. Sometimes, I ask what if I quit one? But the answer is IMPOSSIBLE because it's life and I was born with it.


The newspaper came out today was talking about foreign workers in Malaysia without working permit, including Myanmar, Indonesia and Vietnam. They are now under the strict supervision of police and been suffering the pain from the body to the soul, even more than that. I feel so much worry them and for someone.


I'm trying to be so tense to overcome everything. I'm trying to be strong girl to face whatever shit happens in life. That's why I'm tired. Actually, I can cry anytime If I can't take it anymore. And this moment, I just want to go home. Suddenly, I feel lost my interest of everything. EVERYTHING.


I don't know whether the way I'm going is right, but I haven't seen any exit yet. Where will I be in next spring? I'm supposed to know what, how, where my life would be. However, it's funny that I couldn't answer this question now.

Maybe I'm a too complicated girl. Maybe I worry too much. But at the present, I couldn't control... I couldn't help.


  1. well for those complicated issue,
    recently i learn four words
    to apply it all, that is:

    This TOO Should Pass.

    hope it can help you.
    find out some answer
    for the question above...

    Take care.

  2. Take it easy. Sure have the way to overcome one.

    Good luck!

  3. Girl, let's me ask you:
    What you have left if you quit everything?
    And the other solution is, If you don't quit, if you don't run away, then what you need to do to face this?
    I think, you will have the answer.
    I have faith in you:) Cheer up!

  4. Thanks :-]. I do hope.

  5. lately i talk to someone...

    he ask me and answer me an question and answer; make me realise that ....

    question: pressure or stress generate from where? who? how?
    answer: yourself

  6. If thing doesn't push you from behind, if life doesn't give you trouble then there will be no pressure and stress. Pressure all come from outside environment not we create it our own.

    The only thing we can do is STAY CALM and OPTIMISTIC. That's how I understand from what Por advices me.

    However, if there is a FLOOD or a VOLCANO coming very near by you, and you just sit there and tell yourself "stay calm and optimistic" to wait for GOD will end it. Then you're gonna die.

    My problem is I have to do something, just don't know how to do it. Should I just do nothing, stay there and wait for life brings me away wherever it wants me to be?

  7. When you still do not know what to do yet, I suggest: take a break, relax & look around.

    Besides, give yourself a timeline, e.g: you only will relax & look around for one week; after a week, you have to face the reality & know which you want for your life.

    Normally we called it as demotivated period. Once after the period, you will able to find back your energy & fight for whatever things that you wanted.


  8. Thank for the positive comment, Eve. I will try. Actually, too tired also can't do anything. Only can rest.

  9. I'm sorry you're tired and feeling pain. And yes, there is horrible oppression and injustice in the world. And often, we would like to do something about it but just don't know what.

    Maybe you will find an answer for yourself soon, or maybe it will take longer. But I think that it's because you're a good person that you care about others, and that is in itself, a good thing.

    Try to look at the good things enough to stay strong, and know that it's natural for your courage to ebb and flow. And that sometimes you will have to work hard to renew it, even if the way to renew it means looking away from the pain for awhile.

  10. Hello lynda,

    I don't know who you are! But I deeply appreciate your comment. Seem like you are such a experienced lady.

    Thanks a lot.

  11. dun worry be happy .... ^o^